I am the bracelet you sport.

I don't even know what this is from, but I really like it.

2008-08-14T01:39:59Z

"It's okay. It's okay to want someone you can't have. It's okay to keep friendships when you don't want them, or want something more. It's okay to cry when you're hurt and it's okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. Believe it or not, it's always gonna be okay. That's just how it works. Sometimes, things don't always work out the way you want them to and a lot of times, it seems like they never will. But it's okay, that's how life's supposed to go. It's all about learning how to deal with the bumpy parts in the road and waiting til they're smooth again. It's all about forgiving and forgetting. It's all about waiting and wishing. That's just how life is."

hhhoax @ 2008-08-07T18:07:00

2008-08-07T22:09:07Z

I still have it saved.

hhhoax @ 2008-07-08T10:52:00

2008-07-08T14:53:46Z

I can't stop looking at the secrets on ljsecret.

I feel like I could've written this one myself.

hhhoax @ 2008-07-07T18:09:00

2008-07-07T22:10:23Z

This was posted on ljsecret. It made me smile because of how much it applied to me.

Edit: this one too

hhhoax @ 2008-06-18T16:12:00

2008-06-18T20:13:30Z

My love horoscope for today:

Wednesday, June 18
You will have to control your imagination, in order not to exaggerate or be obsessed by small details in your relationship. For example, there could be groundless jealousy with respect to your companion, or you may attempt to impose your decision on him or her.

Ugh.

hhhoax @ 2008-06-15T19:32:00

2008-06-15T23:42:48Z

So, prom and Wildwood were amazing and I had so much fun. I pretty much slept the whole weekend, aside from going to the boardwalk, haha. But oh well, I had a really good time.

Anyway, Rob is leaving in ten days, ugh. I know I wrote about it in my last entry but I still can't stop thinking about it. :\ I'm probably getting myself all worked up for nothing, as usual.

Anyway, again, I'm going to post my horoscopes because I never do that and I thought this one was worth posting.

Sunday, June 15
When working with others, try to smile even if you don't care about what they're saying. Let someone's story sink in before you decide whether or not to believe it. Don't pretend to believe if you really do not. Improving a relationship will first involve improving yourself.

I hate when horoscopes are that accurate. It's creepy. Here's my love horoscope:

Sunday, June 15
The integral act of love must result in the revitalization of both partners on the physical as well as the emotional and mental levels. As a rule, when someone is tired, it is because you are not achieving an energy circuit adapted to the environment.

I'm really not sure what to think about that one, but whatever. I'll figure it out sooner or later.

Bye!

hhhoax @ 2008-06-11T18:05:00

2008-06-11T22:10:46Z

So today was the last day of school. Well, besides Friday when I have to go in to take one final. But I don't really count that. I hasn't really hit me yet that I'm out of high school. I probably won't actually cry until graduation. I cried during Italian class, but that's only because Mrs. Hogan is probably the only teacher that I'm actually going to miss.

Anyway, prom is Friday, and then Wildwood is this weekend. I'm really excited, especially because everything is done with now and there's no more stress. I just want to have fun and I hope to avoid all drama with anyone.

Rob is going to Europe in exactly two weeks. He won't be back until mid July. I know he's going to have fun with his friends and I want him to have fun, but this is really going to suck. I know I won't be able to talk to him every day and I'm trying to prepare myself for that now, but I don't know how I'm going to deal with it when he's away. I've never really gone a whole day without talking to him atleast once, and the thought of not being able to talk to him for a couple minutes is just kind of unsettling. Oh well, I know he'll be having fun and that's all that matters. I guess I just have to find something to do to occupy myself when he's gone.

I need a job.

hhhoax @ 2008-04-30T18:26:00

2008-04-30T22:31:57Z

Disney was so much fun. Coming home was a slap in the face. On another note:

I kind of wish everyone and everything that has been bothering me would just go away. I don't know what's wrong with me lately. These past few months, actually. I put myself into this frustrating, depressing mood and I can't seem to get out of it for a couple of days. It's a vicious cycle. A situation gets brought up, I think too much into things, and I make myself upset over things that never happened. I think too far into the future, make predictions, and make myself upset again. It's a terrible habit and I don't know how to break myself of it. I've always been a very sensitive person, but these past few months it seems as if I've been more sensitive and uptight than I've ever been. I react to things too quickly and get myself upset over something that was supposed to be a joke. I'm pushing someone that I love away from me and I don't need this to happen again. I want everything to get better. This sucks.

hhhoax @ 2008-04-20T22:58:00

2008-04-21T02:58:50Z

Orlando in four days with Rob, his mom, and sister. I cannot wait to get the fuck out of here.

hhhoax @ 2008-03-26T20:58:00

2008-03-27T01:00:46Z

So I've come to a conclusions that a lot of people suck, and will forever continue to suck and will always be shitty people with shitty attitudes. And there's nothing I can do about it. I don't care anymore. I like my life right now and I'm not going to let anyone else ruin it. Okay? Okay. BYE!

hhhoax @ 2008-03-16T19:27:00

2008-03-17T00:40:08Z

Heres to spending a year and a half with the most amazing person I've ever met. I couldn't ask for anything better than this. We've gone through so much these past few months, and now we're stronger than we've ever been. Thank you for holding my hand throughout everything. Thank you for being my best friend. I love you so much.

hhhoax @ 2008-03-16T11:09:00

2008-03-16T15:11:25Z

I'm worried. I'm always worrying. I'm always the one who takes in everyone else's emotions and deals with them. I feel sad for everyone. I feel angry for everyone. I want you to get better. I hate feeling like I can't do anything to help.

I pray for you every night.

hhhoax @ 2008-03-15T18:36:00

2008-03-15T22:36:30Z

I wish I wasn't so easily upset by anything and everything.

hhhoax @ 2008-03-04T19:48:00

2008-03-05T00:49:40Z

Stuff has been pretty good lately. Everything with Rob is good. Senior week started today, it was alright. Hopefully it's better tomorrow. I'm probably going to be on the computer a lot less because it's giving me massive headaches. And I still need a job. Great.

hhhoax @ 2008-02-24T19:38:00

2008-02-25T00:38:52Z

I can't stop thinking about getting a tattoo and I don't know why. Rob's house was fun this weekend. I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW.

hhhoax @ 2008-02-21T16:58:00

2008-02-21T21:59:48Z

So, I just booked my two hair appointments for Rob's prom and my prom. We booked the hotel and the limo for the OBHS prom, so now all I need are my dresses. Yay! I'm excited.

hhhoax @ 2008-02-19T18:46:00

2008-02-19T23:46:48Z

Great friends, family, and an amazing boyfriend. Life's good.

I've done this once before.

2008-02-18T21:31:11Z

In a comment, tell me anything you want.
It could be your honest opinion about me (positive or negative) or a random secret.
It could be posted anonymously or you could let me know who you are, it's up to you.

I didn't get much of a reaction the last time I did this, and I'm bored. So yeah, have fun I guess. Haha.

hhhoax @ 2008-02-11T18:48:00

2008-02-11T23:48:58Z

This video puts me in such a good mood.

hhhoax @ 2008-02-05T16:52:00

2008-02-05T21:53:34Z

I need to work on not letting people get to me. Especially people who aren't worth a single minute of my time. I'm constantly letting myself get so angry over worthless, insignificant people. And that's going to change.

hhhoax @ 2008-02-03T19:35:00

2008-02-04T00:41:25Z

So, I need a job, badly. I want all of these things and I have no money to spend. Well, I do. I just don't feel like wasting it all right now.

The top two on the list of things that I want:

I'll probably get the MacBook as an early graduation present from my aunt, so that can wait.

But seriously. I need a job.

I'm done.

2008-01-28T02:42:24Z

I don't care how you're going to react to this. I really don't give a shit. This is me venting and if you feel the need to bitch to me/about me, laugh at me, whatever, I don't care. Your feelings are worthless to me. Congratulations, you've actually pissed me off to the point where I'm writing in my livejournal about it. To the point where if I hold any single ounce of my anger in for a moment longer, I'm going to throw my computer out of the nearest window. Normally I wouldn't waste my time, so I hope you feel extra special. You are moronic enough to the point where I'm fed up. This entry has nothing to do with you doing something to me personally. I don't care if you haven't done anything to me recently, so please, save your bitching and moaning. This entry is just about you in general. And how much of a fucking idiot you are. Please go ahead and tell more people about how you "love fighting with people" and how it's "so funny". Please go ahead and tell my boyfriend that you'll slap me if I look at you the wrong way and write about how you want to kick the shit out of me. Go ahead. I really hope you can sit on your throne and feel high and mighty because I wrote this about you and because you think somehow, you've won and that I'm giving in. Because I'm sitting here laughing at how truly fucking delusional you are.

I know, I know "omg you're so fucking stupid and immature i never did anything to you wtf why do you hate me all of the sudden omg im gonna bitch slap you".

You can tell me to get over myself all you want, but this really has nothing to do with me. Go fuck yourself.

hhhoax @ 2008-01-27T11:33:00

2008-01-27T16:36:43Z

I got my acceptance letter to Rider University yesterday :D And they're giving me $12,000 a year! They're actually the last school I expected to hear from, considering I applied about two weeks after I applied to Rutgers and Rowan and I still haven't heard from them. Oh well!

hhhoax @ 2008-01-02T19:24:00

2008-01-03T00:25:14Z

That's all I have to say. Hiyooooooooooooo!

hhhoax @ 2008-01-01T17:00:00

2008-01-01T22:13:33Z

I'm taking advantage of my good mood and making up for the month or two I haven't written in here.

I honestly think this is the happiest I've been in a while. And I mean geniunely happy-- which is odd for me. The previous two months are almost completely behind me and I couldn't be any more thankful. Things with Rob and I have gotten so much better within the past month or so. He makes me so happy and I don't know what I would've done if I would have lost him. He's my best friend and I put all of my trust in him, and he loves me regardless of anything that I've done. I love him so much and I'm happy he knows that. I have absolutely amazing friends too, so I guess I'm pretty lucky :) Mmmmmmmm yeah that's pretty much all I have to say right now. I'm kind of sad to see 2007 go, but I can't wait to see what this year has in store for me. BYEEEEEEEEEE!

PS: Just for you :) <3